A "Love" Letter

The very essence of your "be-ing" I have found in Love and in that same essence I have found my Self in the reflection of the divine substance we share, as one. There is no "figuring" with what dwells so deep, so intimately...for the Truth is the "looking" we have found when we let go of our eyes.
And in your eyes, I too see your Truth which is of mine and I feel you here, even from afar...for no material distance can match the flame of love that burns within the souls of faith.
And even in faith, we need not put our trust for our divinity is far beyond the concept of prayer. To me, my Love, it is no more separated than the illusion I play with daily. It is when we devour the moment with complete emptiness of what our "needs" should be that "nothing" exists perfectly within and of us.
I long to know that which I forget. I long to forget that which I know. And I long to touch the deepest levels of my Being that are merely the divine reflection I am graced upon with each breath.
And in this moment, a simple state of bliss is preserved for the love I feel for you, mankind, and an earnest need to surrender to the power of Love that suits me best. Our Love is not of this world yet, in it, it exists. When I listen to my breath away from that which I perceive as "mine", the wind of change becomes me. It is the magic of renewal that bestows the gift of Love my way, again.
And in this Love births relationships born of Love, unto Love, for the hopes to create more Love on Earth in exchange. The courtship of life is an ongoing flow of simple beauty spilling into passionate skies and blissful rivers seeping into oceans so infinite that waves of Love pound against us with a bittersweet fervor to bring us "Home".
And Love, sweet Love...how it burns so deep, so passionately that all illusion comes up...surfacing like rocks in a stream. We do not see them for what they are and instead of accepting this change in flow, we continue to hit ourselves against the rocks. Yet the water flows on, bends to another direction that creates a new light to follow. When we choose to let go of the struggle and follow this new light, then we learn to Love again.
And again, I am eternally grateful for Love. And for you, my Love, I am eternally grateful for allowing me to bend with the waters of emotion and grace your stream through turbulent patterns only to let go, again and again, of conditioned ways.
Strength abounds in the weakest moments. Truth arises in the history of doubt. And the future of what is to "be" is only known, presently, of Love.
For I can not imagine anything worth living for but Love and thus I live for Love, day by day, knowing -too- that I die the same with each breath that passes...because Love is like that.
And in this Love, you exist with me, with ALL of LIFE and there is no separation from the Truth that we "are".
There are no words that can save us but Love itself - and I long to remember, over and over, that which is already "Me" and thus I let go, over and over, the "me" I think I am.
And the Truth goes on with words that ramble but knowing you, blending Spirits in the face of Love, and touching hearts with a Love not even the Universe would deny...
I am blessed beyond measure with the peace of knowing that we are One in this Universe and have come to make manifest the glory of the Universe on Earth.
5/4/03

Mindfulness

Mindfulness is the key that shall unlock the secrets of the Universe.
They say that the mind is an atom of delicate wisdom when released from the constraints of illusion. This wisdom is in direct relation to that of the heart and the alignment necessary to access the Spirit World. What we don't understand is that the answers are not what we expect but most often exactly what we fear.
There is no comprehension of the manifestations of Spirit Work in words. Silence is the wisdom of the Universe. When we use our breath in alignment with the seasonal changes of life, we are opening channels that allow for the darkest light to surface so that we can begin to build the bridge so long ago suffered from mankind.
This patriarchal life style does not serve our needs any longer. Thoughts do not serve our needs any longer. There is nothing worth saying without the breath of wisdom to guide the words.
No stories will save our egos. No union will manifest reality based on illusion. It is time to drop it all: the ego, the veil of illusion and bring forth the "new" consciousness so long ago forgotten. This is a new season and love pours out of us like the nectar of birth. This is not saying that love is not possible between two hungry souls...it is only opening new channels of experience of what love really is. Love is growth,love is breaking down every part of your "self" you believe is real. Love hurts so much it heals the heart with a compassionate yet disciplined slap to the ego.
When you are ready to let down the guard that constrains the heart, restricts the breath and pours longing from behind its shield, then love will come - whipping your Spirit into a fine-grained substance of humility, self-acceptance, and a new desire for something so deep that all other self-created "needs" will dissipate into the cleansing fire of Truth. What resumes from such a cleansing is Power. This "power" is the intensity of life where breath evolves, where hearts rejoice with the abundance of communion, where the voice is blessed with angelic praise and raised to a vibration other worldly.
This is the season that births the renewal of change. It is the moment the heart grows with the heavens and love detaches from the face you thought you had. What is removed is gently replaced with an innocense unknown to time but brought to life with the power of healing.
You will know the resurrection of death as all of the "work" and progress made over the years will burst forth like the blossoms dancing in the light of the sun. You will feel the nurturing of opposites at play...light and dark, womb and contact made from above. Your womb will grow with the seasons again and change will occur on many levels. You will be the experience of fruition you always longed for.
Your manifestations of reality will explode with a Truth that will propel you to push forth into the atmosphere of creation and love. Some will wonder why you went so far as to let go of all that you had, but all that you had was only the first step to the lessons being experienced at the time.
Power will be yours and the yang of evolution that fertilized your sweet concept of reality will shatter and break the ego to a molten rock of memories. You will forget the face you wore in the crowd and remember the essence that carried you to freedom. You will know the no-thing-ness that dwells within and with this birth will come insight into the protection of spiritual adversity. You will want to partake in the essence of humanity on a level you have never experienced before. There will be time for no-thing. There will be moments of silence to bring you closer to the One Living God. You and Spirit will find peace through union and your partner will support you in your journey of love.
You will grow in this deep silence - your prayers will be answered, your voice will be heard, and all illusion will drop away with the mask you so wanted to lose since birth.
You have been strong through these cycles and it is your time to rise up with the sun, your Grandfather, and put to use the energies of the moon from the creator that dwells within you. People will come. They will listen. And you will have faith in each moment that passes you by...the fulfillment of breath in reality.
The performance that will break through the walls you once shared with others will allow you to play the role of motherhood out through action - not words. You will live by example and this will be your greatest gift as the work that you do to get there will be the ultimate test of faith in love of the Universe at play with your essence. You already know this and your preparation time is closing...for you are ready for the initiation into the motherhood of earth's love and to fulfill that you must vow to do the work with an awareness that most will not understand. You must be ready to let go of all that you have held onto in the materialistic and egocentric realms as your potential is beckoning you to come out and merge with it in the fire of creation.
You are on your way to wholeness and you will be supported from here on out. Your love will continue to grow with the love of a man you know will provide. It is the gift you have been given for the hard work put into so many relationships before.
This will not be an easy road as it will force you to look at yourself on levels you never knew existed in your old habitual patterns of thought. However, you will be open and understanding and therefore your love with this union will be the grounding force that shall set you free on this earth plane.
You must make manifest the glory of the Universe in the realms of unity on earth. I will only say once that stature of the work you have to do. As needless as these words are, it is important for you to understand the ego must be dropped to bond with the potential that will touch the hearts you call to your side. You are love and love is the essence that will continue to guide you into your fruits of labor.
Follow your dreams...
4/13/03