This Dance Is My Own

A certain voice has risen from the depths of my soul. I don’t know why I didn’t come into this moment soldiering through my fears and rising, again, a pure essence of the divinity I AM in this moment. I heard him watching me as I danced. I even saw his eyes. They looked compelled to enter the Mystery yet they stayed distant with the fog. No one shares the same experience. A known fact. A Truth left untold. Many believe that bliss follows the bliss of another. This is a false identity. No one can experience the same moment although they might be in the same time of space, their occupied space in “time” is meant for their perfection, not another. There are elements of Truth that arise amongst the whole that resonate on a Universal level but ultimately, we are having a personal experience of our own Spiritual Nature in this momentous element of “time” we have created within our own understanding. There are times that I have opened my heart and body to those around me, knowing “for sure” they could feel me, know me, love me the way I have opened up to them, in that moment. And then an immediate recognition of differentiation takes place. They are not in the same “space” in time that I have entered. I have opened my heart, my mind, my essence to their being yet , to them, something is lacking.

What was missing? As I reflect on the Truth that inhabits each moment, each being, each paradoxical offspring of thoughts inhabited through the many living Spirits that co-habitate on this planet, I realize that we are, indeed, mirrors but in no way are exact replicas of another. We share DNA traits, cultural traditions, societal standards, heriditary defaults, but in NO WAY are we EXACTLY the same in Spirit. What my Spirit possesses is a means of getting closer to the Truth of my own existence in this life time. Someone else might share insightful moments that integrate with my own, but never can they amount to the transformational energy that has made my life exactly what it is, today. To each it’s own. And that is the Truth. And yet we live amongst each other and sometimes within the field of each others existence and so we learn to adapt and grow and fuse new understanding(s) under the bridge of influence we subjugate ourselves with.
When I dance, I dance as if no one is watching and at the same time, I dance like the world is a stage. It is a symbiotic approach to me. It is all and the same. It is inclusive. Nothing exceeds the other. There is maturation in the process of discovery.
I have seen myself in this dance. This uncovering, this recovery, this discovery of who I AM in each moment I turn my hips to another tune, I move my neck toward the sky, I open my lips to the rain and drench my cheeks in the atmosphere of which I dwell, outwardly, inward. There is no difference, yet in this indifference is the complexity of union that exists throughout the whole of mankind. I am a part of this cycle. I am a part of this union of minds, hearts, souls and Spirits unmanifest in the realization of many. But I am also a part of the future. I am a part of the Dream. I am a part of the reality that knows that nothing matters but the here, the now and the present state of being that has me saying YES! to all that exists in life. And I have faith. I trust the Universe. I trust my Self. I trust the encompassing divinity of Nature that holds me closer and closer to the Truth that I AM ALL THAT EXISTS AROUND (AND WITHIN) my own Core Being. Love has no borders. This is where I stand, right here, right now.
8/31/11

Mindfulness

Mindfulness is the key that shall unlock the secrets of the Universe.
They say that the mind is an atom of delicate wisdom when released from the constraints of illusion. This wisdom is in direct relation to that of the heart and the alignment necessary to access the Spirit World. What we don't understand is that the answers are not what we expect but most often exactly what we fear.
There is no comprehension of the manifestations of Spirit Work in words. Silence is the wisdom of the Universe. When we use our breath in alignment with the seasonal changes of life, we are opening channels that allow for the darkest light to surface so that we can begin to build the bridge so long ago suffered from mankind.
This patriarchal life style does not serve our needs any longer. Thoughts do not serve our needs any longer. There is nothing worth saying without the breath of wisdom to guide the words.
No stories will save our egos. No union will manifest reality based on illusion. It is time to drop it all: the ego, the veil of illusion and bring forth the "new" consciousness so long ago forgotten. This is a new season and love pours out of us like the nectar of birth. This is not saying that love is not possible between two hungry souls...it is only opening new channels of experience of what love really is. Love is growth,love is breaking down every part of your "self" you believe is real. Love hurts so much it heals the heart with a compassionate yet disciplined slap to the ego.
When you are ready to let down the guard that constrains the heart, restricts the breath and pours longing from behind its shield, then love will come - whipping your Spirit into a fine-grained substance of humility, self-acceptance, and a new desire for something so deep that all other self-created "needs" will dissipate into the cleansing fire of Truth. What resumes from such a cleansing is Power. This "power" is the intensity of life where breath evolves, where hearts rejoice with the abundance of communion, where the voice is blessed with angelic praise and raised to a vibration other worldly.
This is the season that births the renewal of change. It is the moment the heart grows with the heavens and love detaches from the face you thought you had. What is removed is gently replaced with an innocense unknown to time but brought to life with the power of healing.
You will know the resurrection of death as all of the "work" and progress made over the years will burst forth like the blossoms dancing in the light of the sun. You will feel the nurturing of opposites at play...light and dark, womb and contact made from above. Your womb will grow with the seasons again and change will occur on many levels. You will be the experience of fruition you always longed for.
Your manifestations of reality will explode with a Truth that will propel you to push forth into the atmosphere of creation and love. Some will wonder why you went so far as to let go of all that you had, but all that you had was only the first step to the lessons being experienced at the time.
Power will be yours and the yang of evolution that fertilized your sweet concept of reality will shatter and break the ego to a molten rock of memories. You will forget the face you wore in the crowd and remember the essence that carried you to freedom. You will know the no-thing-ness that dwells within and with this birth will come insight into the protection of spiritual adversity. You will want to partake in the essence of humanity on a level you have never experienced before. There will be time for no-thing. There will be moments of silence to bring you closer to the One Living God. You and Spirit will find peace through union and your partner will support you in your journey of love.
You will grow in this deep silence - your prayers will be answered, your voice will be heard, and all illusion will drop away with the mask you so wanted to lose since birth.
You have been strong through these cycles and it is your time to rise up with the sun, your Grandfather, and put to use the energies of the moon from the creator that dwells within you. People will come. They will listen. And you will have faith in each moment that passes you by...the fulfillment of breath in reality.
The performance that will break through the walls you once shared with others will allow you to play the role of motherhood out through action - not words. You will live by example and this will be your greatest gift as the work that you do to get there will be the ultimate test of faith in love of the Universe at play with your essence. You already know this and your preparation time is closing...for you are ready for the initiation into the motherhood of earth's love and to fulfill that you must vow to do the work with an awareness that most will not understand. You must be ready to let go of all that you have held onto in the materialistic and egocentric realms as your potential is beckoning you to come out and merge with it in the fire of creation.
You are on your way to wholeness and you will be supported from here on out. Your love will continue to grow with the love of a man you know will provide. It is the gift you have been given for the hard work put into so many relationships before.
This will not be an easy road as it will force you to look at yourself on levels you never knew existed in your old habitual patterns of thought. However, you will be open and understanding and therefore your love with this union will be the grounding force that shall set you free on this earth plane.
You must make manifest the glory of the Universe in the realms of unity on earth. I will only say once that stature of the work you have to do. As needless as these words are, it is important for you to understand the ego must be dropped to bond with the potential that will touch the hearts you call to your side. You are love and love is the essence that will continue to guide you into your fruits of labor.
Follow your dreams...
4/13/03