Beginnings. Always Beginnings. From womb to first breath, from childhood to adulthood, from infancy in every moment of personal evolution to the understanding that brings depth of awareness. I am an infant. Each moment, I open my eyes for the first time and learn new things. I am a baby crying for Love. Opening with each step my daughter takes, each time I learn that her steps were and are, in some way, guiding my own.
I fall in Love every day yet forget to express this Love to my Self. I have been told, "it's not about you. It's not about what YOU want."
Why Not? Life is an illusion. I create the reality in which I live. So although I dedicate my life to my family, it is most definitely about ME! It's about me in the sense of learning who "ME" is. Who am I? Who are You? Who are these faces, these names, these people who are representing humanity as a collective whole? There is a balance in life one must find - where "Self" is also "self-less", where giving is also receiving, where believing is also questioning, where finding is also letting go. The duality of life is the essence of survival. Yin and Yang. Dark and Light. Night and Day. Man and Woman. Black and White. We see these differences and have a tendency to attract one "pole" of the magnetic force. Although this duality exists and "is", learning to recognize the "central colors" that blend all of Life is what releases the polarity of our minds.
If one is truly a person of "light" then more than likely, they have learned to embrace the "dark" side of their existence too. Learning to accept both sides and acknowledging their existence allows a release of burdens that create stagnation in one's life.
Owl teaches this medicine. Seeing through the darkness (visions in the night) show what fears being revealed. We all have owl eyes. If we use them with awareness, then we open ourselves to the inner dimensions that stay dormant in our Being - that is, until dreams attempt to unravel what we fail to accept when we are awake.
I draw on this energy often - recognizing the darkside amidst the light within me. Honestly, I don't particularly like that side of me, but when I choose to embrace the RAW emotion, the hurt feelings, the shameful, the fearful, etc side of me, then I am actually allowing the LIGHT to emmanate more freely through me (by releasing - ie. letting go of - the negative otherwise stored up energy in my body/thoughts/BEING).
I am an infant but also a wise crone balancing in the middle of this thirty-something year old body masked by the illusion of mind. When I let go of it all, I AM. And that is all that I need be.
I fall in Love every day yet forget to express this Love to my Self. I have been told, "it's not about you. It's not about what YOU want."
Why Not? Life is an illusion. I create the reality in which I live. So although I dedicate my life to my family, it is most definitely about ME! It's about me in the sense of learning who "ME" is. Who am I? Who are You? Who are these faces, these names, these people who are representing humanity as a collective whole? There is a balance in life one must find - where "Self" is also "self-less", where giving is also receiving, where believing is also questioning, where finding is also letting go. The duality of life is the essence of survival. Yin and Yang. Dark and Light. Night and Day. Man and Woman. Black and White. We see these differences and have a tendency to attract one "pole" of the magnetic force. Although this duality exists and "is", learning to recognize the "central colors" that blend all of Life is what releases the polarity of our minds.
If one is truly a person of "light" then more than likely, they have learned to embrace the "dark" side of their existence too. Learning to accept both sides and acknowledging their existence allows a release of burdens that create stagnation in one's life.
Owl teaches this medicine. Seeing through the darkness (visions in the night) show what fears being revealed. We all have owl eyes. If we use them with awareness, then we open ourselves to the inner dimensions that stay dormant in our Being - that is, until dreams attempt to unravel what we fail to accept when we are awake.
I draw on this energy often - recognizing the darkside amidst the light within me. Honestly, I don't particularly like that side of me, but when I choose to embrace the RAW emotion, the hurt feelings, the shameful, the fearful, etc side of me, then I am actually allowing the LIGHT to emmanate more freely through me (by releasing - ie. letting go of - the negative otherwise stored up energy in my body/thoughts/BEING).
I am an infant but also a wise crone balancing in the middle of this thirty-something year old body masked by the illusion of mind. When I let go of it all, I AM. And that is all that I need be.
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